This week I am just going to share some of what my journal entree was like last night:
"I don't know. Honestly I don't know. Today I am just ready to go home. The stress has got me overwhelmed... I feel like I'm pulling a hundred thousand ton mountain that has a firmer foundation than the Lord can offer. Although, I know that all on these feelings are sent to blow me as the Jaredites (Ether 6:8). I know that the Lord is with me or at lest sees me. Even God withdrew his all from Jesus as he hung on the cross. Though he saw him and wanted to do all he could to save him, he had a plan that is perfect. If He would have intervened we all would have been lost. God loves me just as he loves His Only Begotten and he even loves me enough to allow me to go through a portion of what his Son went though. I'm finished but there is still a race to run, and so I run. And with faith we can move mountains."
Now before you all think I'm calling it quits, before you start to think that I am giving up I want you to think about what I am trying to convey. If you feel sorry for me, if you want to help me, I have one thing to say. Repent. God's plan is perfect. There are times that it seems like He is universes away but I testify that at those times we are next to some of the best and strongest people that have ever walked this earth. God loves us enough to let us go through challenges but as Paul tells us in 1st Corinthians, We will never be tried above what we are able. Alone we are dust but with Christ we cannot be defeated. If we get defeated it is our own fault. "The road may be long, With giants to fight" but giants can be fought and will be defeated. I week has been great. When we have trials that means we are progressing. That means God himself is making us all we can be.
I love you all. Enough to say I hope you have a challenging week.
Elder E.E. Buyers